LOVE IS A COMPROMISE....

It's so hard to say, 'I love you,' and not draw back in tears.
Its so hard to know that your not there to help me face my fears. 
It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot hear your voice. 
It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside. 
It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. 
It's so hard to live without you, when I need you more then words.
I want to scream how much I love you 
but hold back and not be heard. 
It's so hard to go to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you. 
It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. 
It's so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong? 
It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known, 
I will never love another, 

All along there was this voice inside my head telling me to give up,
telling me it's not going to happen 
but I listened to my heart instead, 
believing one day, 
you'd make my dreams come true. 
I guess that was all just wishful thinking.
But now it's too late to take the good advice 
the voice inside my head gave me, 
and for some strange reason I don't regret it... 
Maybe it's because I'm afraid to give up hope. 
I'm scared that if I give up on you,

I had tried so hard to forget you..
And many times I could almost convince myself 
that I no longer cared. 
But all it took was the chorus of our favorite song,
and it was right back to the beginning.
No matter how much time had passed, 
I still missed the place where our fingers perfectly aligned with each others.  
Memories of you caught me at the most unexpected times. 
You knew me best, 
and you loved me like only a true love could. 
I don't know what you are doing now, 
or how often you think of me,
but I knew I crossed your mind from time to time. 

We got some real good memories with each other. 
There are things I hold close to my heart, 
and know I'll cherish always, 
because they were times spent with you. 
Maybe it wasn't all wonderful, but what is? 
I had tears, yes, 
but that's okay, 
because I had you; 
I had laughs;
I had love..
I was thinking of all the pain I went through because of you;
all the tears I spent crying over you  
but then I got past all of the sadness 
when I reached a point in my daydreams 
when I was happy with you; 
when everything just seemed so right, 

I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair right now. 
And I wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation,
so that's not with this is.
But I just wanted to tell you,
I wanted to say about everything that happened.. 
I'm sorry. 
I'm sorry for my part in it.
And I'm sorry for the pain I know it caused you. 
But mostly I'm sorry because I miss our friendship.
And however far off it may be, 
I look forward to the day that we can be friends again.

I woke up one morning and found myself in the cold rain in my tear stained shirt. 
There was a time when my heart over-filled with dreams, 
and a place in your arms where I could flee. 
But somewhere down the road all I had left was a kiss in the wind.. 
And you were gone...
I don't talk to you anymore 
but I think I'll always remember you 
because for that short time we spent together, 
you brought out a whole new me, 
a better me, 
you brought smiles to my face. 
And I will forever be thankful for that..
I  still believe we're meant for each other..

I know there will never be a time when you will ever feel the same.
In that moment, I felt my heart break. 
And I thought, 'I cannot live without you'.
I don't WANT to live without you'. 
And then it slowly crept into my mind that no matter how bad I wanted or needed you 
It wouldn't matter. 
Somehow, and very painfully I was sure 
my life would continue. 
With or without you. .. Right? 

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. 
Us meeting, being friends, letting our friendship grow into love. 
Us being together and getting through everything.
And lastly I believe that there is a reason for us going our own separate ways. 
One day I will find out what that reason is. 

The laughter, the tears, every moment.
You really have changed me. 
So this is good-bye, 
because it's our time, 
and nothing lasts forever.
But maybe its true that for a moment, 
we had it all, together. 
I'd like to think you loved me once, 
but that was so long ago... 
Its sad how everything fades away, 
it hurts to see you go. 
But when the tears dry there are no regrets.
And time will heal all sorrow. 
I want you to know I'll never forget you. 

When we got together, I didn't want to for one reason. 
I didn't want it to end like this. 
I didn't want to lose what we've lost.
I guess the reason we could never work things out is 
because you were too proud to forgive me 
for something I was truly sorry for.
I try not to think about what might have been, 
because that was then, 
and we have taken different roads. 
We can't go back again, 
there's no use given in. 

People have scars. 
In all sorts of unexpected places. 
Like secret roadmaps of our personal histories. 
Diagrams of all our old wounds. 
Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. 
But some of them don't. 
Some wounds we carry with us everywhere. 
And though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers...
Maybe our old wounds teach us something. 
They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. 
They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. 
That's what we like to think. 
But that's not the way it is, is it? 

Love isn't just moonlit kisses and beautiful words. 
It's also broken hearts and sad words. 
Because you never know what you had until you have lost it. 
You feel incomplete and so unhappy. 
Then this person walks back into your life.
And for one brief shining moment you feel the way you did before. 
Everything came back again for that one moment. 
Now everything in your life has changed. 
It doesn't matter who came before him or who might come after him. 
You realize you can mend it all up and make it better. 
And maybe, just maybe this time you will hold on so tight 
that you might never let go. 
First love, first this, first that. 

You never realize that once someone's love surrounded you but now..
what do you have? 
Memories. 
Why does love hurt so much when it's supposed to be such a good thing? 
Why do we dwell on the past, when the future is 'what matters'? 
It's something that can't be helped 
but maybe it's harder for you than it is for someone else. 
Faint smells of cologne or perfume, 
a song on the radio, a movie or a single word. 
These are things that bring back those memories. 
But, you can't hide from these things because they're there 
and no matter how hard you try to, 
they'll always be there. 
Even when you have moved on to the future 
and those things don't trigger the memories as much as before, 
they still do. 
You can't forget someone that you've loved, 
you may want to but you cannot. 
Love can't be forgotten 
no matter how hard we all try 
and how much we think it'll ease the pain, 
it will always be there 

Isn't it funny how you can think you're completely over someone 
but if you stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, 
or even get a glance of him on the street 
just in an instant, it can change all that.? 
And you start to remember the pain. 
And that hollow space is feeling more and more with every second that goes by. 
But you bury these feelings deep down, 
so deep that you're sure no one will be able to tell. 
To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or will ever be. 
Everything's just perfect. 
And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is 
when the person you love most is standing right next to you, 
yet you can never have them. 

When someone you love abandons you, 
it doesn't hurt just because they've changed, 
or lied, 
or went back on their promises. 
But because you know what they really are. 
And what a beautiful person they can be. 
And when they take that away from you 
and won't let you see that beautiful person again, 
nothing hurts more than having someone just decide 
to take your entire world away 

They say love can mend a broken heart, but how? 
Because my heart won't love when it's broken...
I can't seem to erase all the memories of you. 

All of our young lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete. 
We choose partners and change partners. 
We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope..