LOVE IS A COMPROMISE....

It's so hard to say, 'I love you,' and not draw back in tears.
Its so hard to know that your not there to help me face my fears. 
It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot hear your voice. 
It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside. 
It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. 
It's so hard to live without you, when I need you more then words.
I want to scream how much I love you 
but hold back and not be heard. 
It's so hard to go to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you. 
It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. 
It's so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong? 
It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known, 
I will never love another, 

All along there was this voice inside my head telling me to give up,
telling me it's not going to happen 
but I listened to my heart instead, 
believing one day, 
you'd make my dreams come true. 
I guess that was all just wishful thinking.
But now it's too late to take the good advice 
the voice inside my head gave me, 
and for some strange reason I don't regret it... 
Maybe it's because I'm afraid to give up hope. 
I'm scared that if I give up on you,

It's just those unspoken moments, 
where we both know that we still need each other 
I've become a real believer in not defining every single thing. 
Seems like every time you think you've figured out what something is, 

I never said it would be easy, 
I only said it would be worth it. 
I never said there wouldn't be tears,
I just promised to be there if there was. 
I never said it would be true love, 
I only said you'd know if it was. 
I never promised it would be forever, 
I only said to love unconditionally and generously 
with no recognition of time. 
I never said to hold on at all costs, 
I only said one day we'd have to let go and be free. 
I never said you'd get the rainbow without getting through the rain, 
I only said the sun is always brighter than the storm. 
I never said we wouldn't cry, 
or feel like our heart had died. 

I had tried so hard to forget you..
And many times I could almost convince myself 
that I no longer cared. 
But all it took was the chorus of our favorite song,
and it was right back to the beginning.
No matter how much time had passed, 
I still missed the place where our fingers perfectly aligned with each others.  
Memories of you caught me at the most unexpected times. 
You knew me best, 
and you loved me like only a true love could. 
I don't know what you are doing now, 
or how often you think of me,
but I knew I crossed your mind from time to time. 

We got some real good memories with each other. 
There are things I hold close to my heart, 
and know I'll cherish always, 
because they were times spent with you. 
Maybe it wasn't all wonderful, but what is? 
I had tears, yes, 
but that's okay, 
because I had you; 
I had laughs;
I had love..
I was thinking of all the pain I went through because of you;
all the tears I spent crying over you  
but then I got past all of the sadness 
when I reached a point in my daydreams 
when I was happy with you; 
when everything just seemed so right, 

I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair right now. 
And I wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation,
so that's not with this is.
But I just wanted to tell you,
I wanted to say about everything that happened.. 
I'm sorry. 
I'm sorry for my part in it.
And I'm sorry for the pain I know it caused you. 
But mostly I'm sorry because I miss our friendship.
And however far off it may be, 
I look forward to the day that we can be friends again.

You stopped caring about how I felt… 
so I stopped feeling. 
You stopped caring about what I said… 
so I stopped talking. 
You stopped caring about how I see things… 
so I stopped sharing my perspective. 
You stopped caring, sharing, feeling, showing… 
and so did I. 
Now you're starting to care… 
and I'm the one that can't....
I try to hate you.. 
but i can't.
I try to hurt you.. 
but i can't. 
I tried to love you.. 

I woke up one morning and found myself in the cold rain in my tear stained shirt. 
There was a time when my heart over-filled with dreams, 
and a place in your arms where I could flee. 
But somewhere down the road all I had left was a kiss in the wind.. 
And you were gone...
I don't talk to you anymore 
but I think I'll always remember you 
because for that short time we spent together, 
you brought out a whole new me, 
a better me, 
you brought smiles to my face. 
And I will forever be thankful for that..
I  still believe we're meant for each other..

I know there will never be a time when you will ever feel the same.
In that moment, I felt my heart break. 
And I thought, 'I cannot live without you'.
I don't WANT to live without you'. 
And then it slowly crept into my mind that no matter how bad I wanted or needed you 
It wouldn't matter. 
Somehow, and very painfully I was sure 
my life would continue. 
With or without you. .. Right? 

I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. 
Us meeting, being friends, letting our friendship grow into love. 
Us being together and getting through everything.
And lastly I believe that there is a reason for us going our own separate ways. 
One day I will find out what that reason is. 

The laughter, the tears, every moment.
You really have changed me. 
So this is good-bye, 
because it's our time, 
and nothing lasts forever.
But maybe its true that for a moment, 
we had it all, together. 
I'd like to think you loved me once, 
but that was so long ago... 
Its sad how everything fades away, 
it hurts to see you go. 
But when the tears dry there are no regrets.
And time will heal all sorrow. 
I want you to know I'll never forget you. 

I think letting you go was the best. 
Even though I loved you so much, 
I just couldn't deal with the pain. 
And the times we spent together 
were the best times of my life. 
But no matter how much I wanted to keep you 
I couldn't. 
I couldn't hold onto you, 
knowing that all you were going to do was hurt me. 

When we got together, I didn't want to for one reason. 
I didn't want it to end like this. 
I didn't want to lose what we've lost.
I guess the reason we could never work things out is 
because you were too proud to forgive me 
for something I was truly sorry for.
I try not to think about what might have been, 
because that was then, 
and we have taken different roads. 
We can't go back again, 
there's no use given in. 

People have scars. 
In all sorts of unexpected places. 
Like secret roadmaps of our personal histories. 
Diagrams of all our old wounds. 
Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. 
But some of them don't. 
Some wounds we carry with us everywhere. 
And though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers...
Maybe our old wounds teach us something. 
They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. 
They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. 
That's what we like to think. 
But that's not the way it is, is it? 

When you love someone, you'll do anything you can to keep them with you. 
Unfortunately, there is also a point when you have to step back and say that it's time to let go.
A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious. 
Not wanting to give up but your hands feel the pain. 
And when you finally let go 
you're free from any pain 

Love isn't just moonlit kisses and beautiful words. 
It's also broken hearts and sad words. 
Because you never know what you had until you have lost it. 
You feel incomplete and so unhappy. 
Then this person walks back into your life.
And for one brief shining moment you feel the way you did before. 
Everything came back again for that one moment. 
Now everything in your life has changed. 
It doesn't matter who came before him or who might come after him. 
You realize you can mend it all up and make it better. 
And maybe, just maybe this time you will hold on so tight 
that you might never let go. 
First love, first this, first that. 

You never realize that once someone's love surrounded you but now..
what do you have? 
Memories. 
Why does love hurt so much when it's supposed to be such a good thing? 
Why do we dwell on the past, when the future is 'what matters'? 
It's something that can't be helped 
but maybe it's harder for you than it is for someone else. 
Faint smells of cologne or perfume, 
a song on the radio, a movie or a single word. 
These are things that bring back those memories. 
But, you can't hide from these things because they're there 
and no matter how hard you try to, 
they'll always be there. 
Even when you have moved on to the future 
and those things don't trigger the memories as much as before, 
they still do. 
You can't forget someone that you've loved, 
you may want to but you cannot. 
Love can't be forgotten 
no matter how hard we all try 
and how much we think it'll ease the pain, 
it will always be there 

Isn't it funny how you can think you're completely over someone 
but if you stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, 
or even get a glance of him on the street 
just in an instant, it can change all that.? 
And you start to remember the pain. 
And that hollow space is feeling more and more with every second that goes by. 
But you bury these feelings deep down, 
so deep that you're sure no one will be able to tell. 
To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or will ever be. 
Everything's just perfect. 
And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is 
when the person you love most is standing right next to you, 
yet you can never have them. 

When someone you love abandons you, 
it doesn't hurt just because they've changed, 
or lied, 
or went back on their promises. 
But because you know what they really are. 
And what a beautiful person they can be. 
And when they take that away from you 
and won't let you see that beautiful person again, 
nothing hurts more than having someone just decide 
to take your entire world away 

We had said good-bye so many times before. 
But somehow our paths always managed to cross. 
But now when we said this good-bye I have this feeling that I will never see you again. 
And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to lead our own separate lives. 
And I honestly don't wanna cross your path in the future, 

I always knew how to smile just so that they thought I wasn't crying on the inside. 
I was ready to drown in the tears I hide. 
Hanging on to a thread of hope so foreign to me that I sometimes doubted it even existed. 
The damage has been done. 

You hug him good-bye like it's nothing. 
While all you want to do is hold on forever. 
But you let go, smile and walk away. 
Then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same. 
Because try as you might you can't make someone love you. 
Sometimes you have to let them be free.

Giving your all doesn’t always necessarily mean the person you love will stay with you forever. 
Is your love enough for you both?
Is it really love you feel ? 
Or, you’re you just too scared to pick up the pieces  left. 
Letting go is not easy.
Moving on is even more difficult. 

There are things that we never want to let go of, 
People we never want to leave behind. 
But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end or world..

When everything around you seems to collapse and the world seems like a cold, dark, and lonely hole; 
In the midst of all the pain and unhappiness, 
Know that I will be the one standing at the edge with a smile and understanding in my heart, 
And an outstreached hand to help pull you out; 
To help you see that within the darkness of this world, 
Our love will be the light to guide us through. 
And when I find myself in that same dark hole, 
I know that you will be there standing at the edge waiting for me....

If you could spend one moment in my mind and one second in my heart, 
You would never doubt my love for you.
I wear my heart like a blanket for you, 

Amongst flowers there are roses. 
Amongst stones there are diamonds. 
Amongst friends there are loved ones. 
And amongst loved ones there is you ...
You are the sunshine of my life. 
You take the clouds away. 
And make me a rainbow every day. 

Did you ever love somebody so much that the earth moved? 
Did you ever love somebody, even though it hurt to? 
Did you ever love somebody - there was nothing else your heart could do? 

Everything I have in this world, and all that I'll ever be,
it could all fall down around me,
just as long as I have you right here by me.
When you aren't there, I'm no place, just lost in time and space. 
I more than love you.. 
I'm not whole without you.
Even when you're not here, I can still feel your love shadowing me.
Blessed to have known you. 
Twice blessed to have loved you.

I don't get many things right the first time. 
In fact, I am told that a lot. 
Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles, and falls brought me here. 
And where was I before the day I first saw your face? 
Now I see it every day and I know that I am the luckiest. 

If, out of time, I could pick one moment and keep it shining, always new...
Of all the days that I have lived.. 

Loving someone is because you find them in your heart, even if it is locked up. 
You can't help yourself but to unlock it for them, 'cause they're what you want...
Love isn't love until we share it. 

If they had ever told me how sweet you could be, I would have said, 'Impossible, impossible for me.' 
And if they said I'd find you beyond the rainbow's end, I would have said, 'Impossible, impossible, my friend.' 

It seems that the best relationships..the ones that last..are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. 
You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. 
Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. 
And the person who was just a friend is suddenly..