LOVE IS A COMPROMISE....

It's so hard to say, 'I love you,' and not draw back in tears.
Its so hard to know that your not there to help me face my fears. 
It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot hear your voice. 
It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside. 
It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. 
It's so hard to live without you, when I need you more then words.
I want to scream how much I love you 
but hold back and not be heard. 
It's so hard to go to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you. 
It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. 
It's so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong? 
It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known, 
I will never love another, 

All along there was this voice inside my head telling me to give up,
telling me it's not going to happen 
but I listened to my heart instead, 
believing one day, 
you'd make my dreams come true. 
I guess that was all just wishful thinking.
But now it's too late to take the good advice 
the voice inside my head gave me, 
and for some strange reason I don't regret it... 
Maybe it's because I'm afraid to give up hope. 
I'm scared that if I give up on you,

It's just those unspoken moments, 
where we both know that we still need each other 
I've become a real believer in not defining every single thing. 
Seems like every time you think you've figured out what something is, 

I never said it would be easy, 
I only said it would be worth it. 
I never said there wouldn't be tears,
I just promised to be there if there was. 
I never said it would be true love, 
I only said you'd know if it was. 
I never promised it would be forever, 
I only said to love unconditionally and generously 
with no recognition of time. 
I never said to hold on at all costs, 
I only said one day we'd have to let go and be free. 
I never said you'd get the rainbow without getting through the rain, 
I only said the sun is always brighter than the storm. 
I never said we wouldn't cry, 
or feel like our heart had died. 

I had tried so hard to forget you..
And many times I could almost convince myself 
that I no longer cared. 
But all it took was the chorus of our favorite song,
and it was right back to the beginning.
No matter how much time had passed, 
I still missed the place where our fingers perfectly aligned with each others.  
Memories of you caught me at the most unexpected times. 
You knew me best, 
and you loved me like only a true love could. 
I don't know what you are doing now, 
or how often you think of me,
but I knew I crossed your mind from time to time. 

We got some real good memories with each other. 
There are things I hold close to my heart, 
and know I'll cherish always, 
because they were times spent with you. 
Maybe it wasn't all wonderful, but what is? 
I had tears, yes, 
but that's okay, 
because I had you; 
I had laughs;
I had love..
I was thinking of all the pain I went through because of you;
all the tears I spent crying over you  
but then I got past all of the sadness 
when I reached a point in my daydreams 
when I was happy with you; 
when everything just seemed so right, 

I know that things between us are pretty much beyond repair right now. 
And I wouldn't ever presume to try and make everything better with a conversation,
so that's not with this is.
But I just wanted to tell you,
I wanted to say about everything that happened.. 
I'm sorry. 
I'm sorry for my part in it.
And I'm sorry for the pain I know it caused you. 
But mostly I'm sorry because I miss our friendship.
And however far off it may be, 
I look forward to the day that we can be friends again.